Tuesday, October 21, 2014

sleep sagas, and my my giant baby

My kid sucks at sleeping. I mean, I know some people have it way worse. Some nights he'll only wake up once which is okay. But Monday night he woke up every 1-1.5 hours. COME ON. Honestly it was just so annoying. We were trying to reason with him, "come on dude, you just ate." then just plain calling him out, "Callum you are ridiculous." I forgot to give him his anti-itch medication that night, which is an anti-histamine, which makes you sleepy. So that didn't help things. But still, he hasn't even been on it for a week yet and he also should be sleeping for longer than he does now anyway.

The first time he wakes up he is hungry. Like angry crying till he gets a bottle. The times after that he sometimes is hungry, sometimes isn't. Sometimes he just wants to be reassured I'm there. Sometimes he wants to cuddle in bed. Sometimes he doesn't know what he wants, he just woke up.

I refuse to do cry it out (CIO) with him at this point. I mean, sometimes we'll let him cry for a few minutes (mostly because we're too exhausted to actually move out of bed) but not longer than about 5 minutes. Sometimes 10 if we're not sleeping yet. But I can't do that. Because he's little and wants me. He's not crying just to be annoying/manipulate us/for fun. He can't talk yet or communicate well, so crying is how he mostly does it. If you can't be comforted by your mom (or dad) when you're an infant, when can you be? The doctor (and my mom) think he may be itchy and that's waking him up, and then he realizes he's awake, and cries. He is a zombie because I don't understand how he is NOT exhausted like we are. A lot of babies this age sleep 10-12 hours a night, even if they wake. He's like eh 8 hours is fine. And I'm gonna wake up 297482 times during those hours. And he doesn't even nap much. A lot of times he'll go down for a 1/2 hour! if he naps for over an hour we talk about how long he's napping for. I require more sleep than my 9 month old, for real.

He also has been wide awake at his normal bedtime. I do his routine which ends with cuddling in (my) bed while he gets a bottle. He drinks some of the bottle, the whines to flip over onto his tummy, and proceeds to crawl around like a little monster on my bed. He'll smile and laugh at me and try to play. If I put him in his crib he just stands there crying and yelling at me. I've been taking him out and putting him into his giant play yard (I never wrote about the play yard, it's been forever) and just let him crawl around to tire himself out more. I'm embarrassed to admit what time he fell asleep last night. But it was so so late.

His 9 month appointment was 9/25. He was 20lb 4 oz, 28 inches (although that is totally a guess...he was twisting and fighting the nurse so she just made some estimated marks on the table), and his head was 18 inches. Growth and development was totally normal. He got 2 shots - Dtap and Hib. They wanted to give him more to totally catch him up but I said no. Because he got 2 shots (hep b and prevnar) 1 month before and broke out in a rash. NOT like before but a smaller, less severe rash. Sorry but I truly believe he gets rashes from his shots, especially when he gets a bunch (the 5 months of his severe itchy rash was after he got a bunch of shots including the combo vax, Pentacel, so I say no to that now which I know they think is nuts).

I returned to work; a new school year has commenced. Callum is now noticing that Im not home during the day and is attached at the hip when I get home. This weekend I have to work my per diem job too, I HATE when I have to work 6 days a week. And it's B shift. Just feel like I get no break in 2 weeks time. But the money is so awesome when I get paid.