Halfway there

21 weeks on Tuesday. We had a doctors appt this past tuesday (20 weeks). Everything was good. Everything with the anatomy scan (ie the "big" ultrasound) looked NORMAL. They yelled at me for never going to get tested for spina bifida and some other stuff. I honestly forgot, since I have soooo much going on. Plus, I mean, wouldn't shit like that show up on the ultrasound anyway? They said I have until I'm 22 weeks + 6 days so there's still time. It's just like... ugh when do I have time to go sit in a lab waiting room to have blood drawn, when there's really no point anyway. Not like finding out really changes anything if something WAS wrong. And the ultrasound was normal anyway, no holes seen in baby's spine. Blah maybe I'll still go because I like looking like a compliant patient. I felt the same way about the cystic fibrosis test when they told me I was a carrier and Eric should get tested. Didn't feel like paying all the money for him to get tested... when it doesn't change our DNA, and since the baby was already created, doesn't change his DNA either. What's the point, when you can't DO anything about it???

Other than that, we heard baby's heartbeat, it was in the 140s and there was all this random static and the doctor said that static was him moving. We met with the other dr at that practice, which was cool since she could be the one there when I deliver. I love Dr. Tripp, but I liked this doctor too.

I've gained about 9 pounds.  Well according to the doctor's office it's only 6.5 pounds, but that was based on my weight at my first doctors appt - which was when I was already 6 or 7 weeks pregnant.  I am going by my weight on literally the day I found out I was pregnant, at like 3 weeks 5 days, (yes I found out eaaaaarly), which I call my "pre-pregnancy" weight. So based on my weight THAT day, it's really 9 pounds. She said that was great and on target. I feel like I've gained 20 - I feel SO fat. They told me to shoot for about 20 pounds total and I really want to watch that since I spent a lot of time losing weight before getting pregnant. I worked so hard and I don't want to ruin that work.

Tired all the time. Some of that is probably stress related. And my pelvic bones ache all the time - not painful, but annoying. I don't even notice it usually since I'm so used to it.

I hate how all baby stuff is either: PINK PINK RIBBON FLUFF or BLUE BLUE BROWN SPORTS. What happened to a baby just being... an infant. Not genderized? I actually read an article that first off, up until the 1940s boys wore pink and girls wore blue - but mostly all babies wore white, unisex baby clothes. Most baby clothes were pretty unisex until the mid 1980s when finding out baby's sex via ultrasound before birth became popular. It was around then that the dichotomy started. Idk, it's just so overdone. Infants don't know they are a boy or a girl, they're a baby. We were at Kohl's today and I looked at the baby section. I kinda was not feeling anything. There was 1 rack of blue and brown clothes for boys - some with sports and monkey pictures on them. Then 4 racks of baby girl clothes, of course,- all pink and purple with ruffles. Just... it's a little boring. Don't get me wrong, I still think most clothes are cute!  This is just something I've noticed that is kinda annoying.

I start working 2 jobs on Tuesday. Last week Gates called me and asked if I could start sooner than 9/3. How soon? In a week. Lol ok then. They need me for sports physicals and to train me all up before school starts. Well I'm still stuck at my current job until we close on the house . So I'll be working 7am-11am at the school, and then 3-11:30pm at the hospital. The school wants me full time but for now said it's okay to work just in the mornings. UGHHHH. Not sure when we're closing, still waiting. SO SICK OF WAITING. Especially now that I'm pregnant and working 16.5 hour days every day because I'm stuuuuck. I've turned in ALL the documents they wanted except the copy of the cancelled check for the "good faith" deposit I had to give to the seller's attorney. Well they haven't cashed it yet... so I can't exactly give the mortgage company a copy of a cancelled check that hasn't been cashed, can I? Got our appraisal report... everything was good and no repairs to the property were required, yay. My attorney's office said they needed my homeowner's insurance binder in order to set the closing date... I had that sent on Friday. So hopefully within the next couple days they give me a GD closing date!! Insurance starts on 8/15 sooo I'd kinda like us to be owners of the house we're paying insurance on. Buying a house sucks major major ASS. I don't ever want to do this again!!

Not sure how my current job will take it when I'm like heeeey I'm quitting. Like tomorrow. They know I'm leaving but they think in September. Hopefully they still let me work per diem after I piss them off by quitting fulltime sooner than expected. Totally stressed about this!!