What's new? I started this blog to write down pregnancy symptoms and pregnancy related stuff so I will list some new symptoms. Some are weird and talking about pelvises and boobs. You are warned.
My hair has gotten very thick. My hair was already thick. It's not attractive. It looks dried out and HUGE. Like, frizzy and as wide as my shoulders. Actually, I think it's almost as thick as when I was kid. My hair has thinned as I've gotten older (although, like I said, still thick). But when I was a kid it was ridiculously huge. During my middle school years, I used to cry that I hated my hair (also, it became curly/frizzy around that time, after having straight hair as a younger kid. So, along with all the other ugliness of puberty - I really was basically a hot mess (glasses, zits, breast buds, chubbiness, etc). If you notice on my facebook page, I never post pictures from those puberty years, because I am still scarred by the horror of life during that time. But I digress...)
It's reaching those giant proportions again. I pretty much throw it up on top of my head all the time. It helps that I work as a nurse and spend 40 hours a week needing it thrown up on my head anyway. (That and the fact my work apparently doesn't believe in a/c, so its pretty much like working on the Sun.)
Ive been feeling a weird pressure in my uterus area. Kinda like if you felt gas pressure across your whole lower belly. Its just a weird feeling that I have never felt before. Also, when I lay down I will push along down my stomach and its squishy-squishy-HARD. I can feel the top of the fundus too (the top of the uterus). Its gross to me. I am a nurse, and went through a maternity clinical where I was feeling funduses. No problem. But when it's your own... it just skeeves me out.
I still have random pelvic pain. Sometimes the pubic symphysis hurts, but not as bad as a few weeks ago when it first started happening. The muscles on one side hurt all the time, but not hurt-hurt, just an annoying feeling. My pelvic outlet also "aches" most of the time, but it's more annoying, not really painful. Sometimes it actually grosses me out because I almost feel like I can *feel* the pelvic outlet spreading. Ugh, I have to stop talking about it!
Also I get random shooting pains in my boobs. I assume it has to do with growing boobs or something. Not much more to say on that, just wanted to document.
I bought a Belly Band and I love it. I am able to wear my shorts from last summer - which saves me money! Also it just provides a little belly support and I like the way it smooths me out. Yes, I will probably be wearing this thing long after I am no longer pregnant.
I worry about labor and birth ALL the time. I found a blog called Hurt by Homebirth, basically a collection of birth stories by women who had thier babies die or serious consequence from choosing a homebirth. It makes me feel a little better, believe it or not. I figure even though I am scared of all the interventions at the hospital, at least the priority is keeping me and the baby alive - even if I don't love the process. Sometimes I think, maybe I wont use drugs. Just get through it and get it over with. Because yes, once you get an epidural, you are stuck laying in bed. And it notoriously starts the epidural cycle effect. It slows down the progression of labor, which means you get pitocin which makes for more painful contractions, sometimes without being dilated enough = C-Section. Or it causes the baby's heart rate to drop. Which it means you end up with a C-Section that way too. But you know what, even though I have about a 1/3 chance of those scenarios happening, I'm starting to be okay with that. All that matters is the baby is born healthy and alive, and I don't end up maimed or dead.
Things are looking good with the house. Got a new mortgage broker, (who is the most knowledgeable and helpful person we have talked to yet in this whole process, btw) and closing costs will be a lot less expensive. There is SO much to do and all kinds of random papers and BS. Our original purchase contract is technically invalid... because the seller never initialed at the bottom of all the pages! WTH.... how did his attorney and my attorney AND our old mortgage broker not see that? Idiots. So I called my attorney and left a message like "Um hey, we need an updated contract because the mortgage underwriters will be like 'hell no, DENY.'" Except I didn't word it like that on my voicemail. Ugh, it is seriously always something. SO hopefully all these people get the message and fix it. Good news is we are officially locked in on the mortgage rate, soooo at least I can relax a little about that. I think I have post-traumatic stress disorder from this whole process, except the process isn't "post" yet LOL.
Go on Tuesday for all the details about the job I was offered; aka the money and benefits. I'm so nervous because I know it will technically be a paycut (I don't know what they are going to offer yet but i KNOW it will be a cut)...but because of the difference in cheaper benefits I dont *think* my take-home pay will be that much less. Also this is a job that has a MUCH better scheduled, I am almost guaranteed a raise every year, and I could potentially stay in this position until I retire. Also, it'd be a really good retirement package.
Ayyy so stressful and so many things going on!!
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