27 weeks - 3rd Trimester

I will be 27 weeks on Tuesday (so basically in a day). That officially starts not only Month 7, but also the THIRD TRIMESTER. In case you were unaware, that is the last one. No more trimesters after that. At the end of the 3rd you get a baby. Sometimes I stop and really think about it and I cannot imagine having a child. I do not know how to be someone's mom. I feel like I am so busy as it is, how will I add a kid to the mix. Obviously, I know that logically, some really stupid people have kids and manage it, so I will too. It's actually better to not think about it too much, to go through the motions of preparing for baby, without being introspective about it because I think doing so would make many people have a freaken anxiety attack.

According to the internets, the baby is around 15 inches and 2.5 lbs now. While that is small for a full term baby, that seems huge to me lol. I can't believe a person that big is living in my body.

Oh also I am having lots of fear about giving birth. About dying but also just the thought of having to do it is so surreal. Childbirth is something that other women do, not me. I really don't want to do it either. Because it is painful but also because it is weird.  I've never been hospitalized before, the whole thing is just so strange. Weird to be in a hospital, to be poked around, just the process itself is SURREAL.

I took these last week:

lol I cannot take pics in a mirror. 26 weeks.

26 weeks

Owning a house is exhausting. Well not really, but it's impossible to keep it all tidy and neat. As soon as you clean something, something else is a mess. Add in the fact that I get home from work at 3pm (yes, I am so lucky that I get out that early everyday) and I'm so damn tired that I usually spend about an hour attending to what I like to refer to as my "personal secretarial business" (phone calls, etc. There's a lot of companies and people to contact when you take on 50 new bills, get a new job - ie new income and insurance, and a new house with it's tax situation.) and then I nap till like 6pm. Then have to run errands, try to be home by 8:30. I have to eat at some point (and clean up all that). Then shower and my hair, and that's when I get chores and cleaning done too. I should be in bed by 10:30 but I consider 11:30 a good time. Up at 6:30am.

Oh also we still have things at my mom's to move, and we really need to oh, i don't know, set up and decorate rooms besides the living room. It's hard to find time to do that. This weekend I was up at 9 on Saturday to go to that glucose test. Home at 12. Ate, nap from 1-2:15. Worked 3-11:30, went to my mom's until 12:30am because I was needed. Today was "Bills Day" where Eric is useless after like noon. I had errands and groceries to get anyway. Life is busy. How do people find time to decorate entire houses? I don't understand.

Anyway, I changed my mind about the baby bedding. Friday night I went to Buy Buy Baby and found a set that I REALLY like. So no more Peter Rabbit theme, and going with this one instead. I know in the long run it doesn't matter at all, but little things like this are nice to focus on lol.

As mentioned, I had my glucose screen (the screening for gestational diabetes) done on Saturday 9/14. I pray to god I pass. The drink itself didn't taste terrible. Except apparently they usually have it refrigerated but they had none in the fridge, so I had to drink it room temp. The workers didin't give a shit; they were working at a lab on a Saturday morning - enough said about their level of morale. But having it cold would have made it soooo much better. I actually struggled more with getting the sheer volume of the liquid down. My stomach is so squished that I can't eat/drink large amts anymore. This other pregnant chick came in like 10 mins after me and chugged hers down. You have 5 mins to drink it and she was done like a minute before me, despite starting after me. They had to "yell" at me to finish it. I could never chug now, I think I would literally puke (actually, i HAVE thrown up a few times lately from pressure/over full stomach. Never threw up during early pregnancy, but NOW is the time I do it lol). Anyway, I felt very judged, like I wasn't as compliant, since I couldn't chug it too. The sugar drink made me feel sleepy, and made the baby feel very kicky. It was incredibly boring to sit in the waiting room for an hour too, so if I fail and have to do the 3 hour test, I will be super annoyed that I have to sit there for 3 HOURS.

He kicks and moves a lot but I'm the only one that he does it for lol. You can feel him doing it if you put your hand on my belly - in theory. Because as soon as someone, besides me, tries to feel, he stops. It's kind of neat to think though that I'm the only one in the entire world that is *physically* aware of his presence. I mean, someday, during the course of his life, thousands and thousands of people will be aware of his physical presence. But for now, there's just one, and that is me. And I'm the first. But it would be nice if he stopped making such a liar out of me. Also, every time I decide to go to a store, he decides to sit on my bladder or something. It's not a feeling you get when not-pregnant. It's just a weird sudden pressure on my bladder so even though I technically probably don't have much pee in me - I need to run to a bathroom. I wish I knew how he was positioned in there actually. I feel kicks and flutters and movements all over so I think (?) he still has enough room to roll around in there. I have a dr's appt Wednesday and I plan on asking about that.